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Thursday, January 19, 2012

Just the Tip

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lDD6Mbp_MbQ

aint a hood nigga
but a nigga from the hood
broke ass college student
and the rest is understood
i stay lookin fresh
and the women dig my swag
and i dont mind the looks
but please dont check the tags
it may seem a lil funny
maybe even sad
but the nicest clothes i got
looked better  on my dad
my Jordan lookin undies
is really Hanes briefs
this Gucci lookin shoes
is really JCP's
my most expensive pair of kicks
is my trusty DCs
whippin in that 4-door
bumpin Weezy on them 8"s
get a lil embarrassin
next to dat nigga with Alpine plates
every time i start the car up
i pray n send my thanks
cause the good Lord knows
there's bout a teaspoon in that tank
my homegirl whip that scion
interior neon lights
i whip that toyota
gas, tire, engine lights
glad i shook the habit
cause them Newports cost a mess
at the gas pump wonderin did i eat yet
in loans up to my nostrils
and they still gon drop my classes
accidentally signed a scam
cause they repossessed my glasses
yes repossessed my glasses
i aint know that either
you know a nigga broke
if he got Ramen in the freezer
my nigga Cryptic came to visit
we went to dinner at a sit-in
it wasnt friday yet so i ate out with the pidgeons
my homegirl Mariah
hit Japan up for a week
im up in PF Changs
tryna get this waitress' cheeks
told her you aint gotta take the whole thing
i just wanna dip the tip
but she aint fuckin wit no broke nigga
so i dipped with just her tip







Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Fight Fire with the Undead

my poisonous fangs
drip like lyrics
from Wu Tang
i bang
to the beat of
bullets
pushin scalps back
like mullets
shovin grenades
down gullets
but i stick around for the splash
red entrails
i wear like a sash
the putrid fumes of the dead
precede me
everyone i ever touch
they leave me
takin with them my heartstrings
they bleed me
but feed me with hate
the morality of
my massacre
aint up for debate
they tricked me with affection
but i think i'll de-bait
now i'll predate my past
by erasin their future
chop up their children
in bloodlust stupor
ull find their remains
in these sewers
have a scavenger hunt
you n Roto Rooters
consider my heart sutured
but consider ya fam dead
got em lined up over here
well actually just their heads
pretty sure i just put u on meds
i know u at least seein red
or black instead
if i whip mine out
n u give head to this led
at gunpoint
or blank range
at this range
even my blanks
would face-change
so save face n suck
ye i taste strange
open up ya mouth
n lemme ventilate those thoughts
too much life can make ya brain rot
n leave you bloodklaut
stuck in a red cell
where the walls bleed
n the bars yell
i'd ask if u mind
but it seems to be blown
for my next necromantic trick
i'll never atone
with your mis construed corpse
the Witch of Endor would say home
i'll bring u back

with oratory

a one-zombie army
is best explanatory
i'll revel in ur self consuming quest for vengeance
seeking me futilely at your salvations expense
n meanwhile i'll get the satisfaction i need
of being the one person that someone who once left needs to see
i must host a banquet for you, my guest!
i'll get preparatory,
let's call my guess that you'll seek me in death...
corollary...



Of Madness and Snapping

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TrpetzaHm-s

Delusions of Grandeur
Illusions of brain lure
Confusions that seem pure
Idea factories couture
Widely accepted
lobotomies with no cure
I'm so sure
What they said was Kosher
But it's givin me beef
N the only relief
is in this
blood on my hands
the bodies in these stands
these murders was not planned
but it feels Hell a Merry to go HAM
I mighta just got damned
but i'd a been Gotdamned
if i sat thru more lies
at this high school election
this girl preachin her perfection
givin these lil boys erections
with a pushup bra
n COVERGIRL
n some underwear
u coulda called neglection
so my memories foamin
n they bubblin up
like when Bush deployed
my cousin but missiles never showed up
but my Cuz got blown higher than
the gas prices that shot up
guess that oil was ghost too
n if Politicians could bleed too
i'd cut em til they drain
n call it P soup
but instead i walked on stage
n snapped in my rage
n beat dat high school girl
til her ears started to bleed
i laughed a lil harder cause she
was wearin a weave
Her parents jumped up
n screamed at me
but the tears in they eyes
was ugly to me
i only stopped stabbin em
cause my daughter didnt agree
my wife sittin shocked
n she glarin at me
she aint believe what
her pupils had just seen
the teacher aint believe
their pupil just got seamed
but the smile on my face
is a permanent one
it'll remain til i lie cold
in Cell block one
it's where they keep
us hell bent ones
they told me to graduate
"dont be a statistic"
forgot to mention
that gettin a job is
unrealistic
she said you should settle down
n we could be together to
found out the offer stood
for 3 other niggas too
they said my first
was a miscarriage
baby was sick
but the Dr had gave us
the wrong pills - aint that a bitch
they said my cuz died
threw himself on a grenade
his friend told me friendly
fire made him Minute Maid
Two girls owe me lines on this track
Mariah Jay
Guess we'll play a game of holla back
Exchange rants with Monique Aleithia Grant
Someone owed me inspiration
i had to grind this without some
where's Padilla at son?
whatever, I'm lost in the world
i'm up in my mind
buildin a still with my time n these rhymes
i'm ready for the beasst with knife n candlesticks
but it seems tonight i'm safe from Renwicks

They should be comin for me soon
but i'm ready to die
they think they'll win with armored platoon
haha - a lie

Eternal Moment

This is dedicated to my brotha elshell
we been thru da storm.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YnilceL4FwU


started dyin when i was born
like whats this hindering form?
God givin us breath
but we just a life fail
im seein so much death
my shadow turnin pale
but my spirit's juggernaut
even if you kill me dead im not
u could never kill me - robocop
dont bother me
with fables of fatigue
classifyin people in leagues
with this shakin voice i plead
this life got me droppin to my knees
with this steady hand i defy
livin my life so people askin y
render Caesar Caesar's
unto God what is Gods
but if Caesar feelin godly
or avaricious for what God be
he'll neva get a dime
or do much more than mock me
but then no mortal man could block me
or rock me
from the destiny
which i'll choose
of my mutha fuckin will
n if da price is my life
its on the mutha fuckin bill
n i'll neva hit da sideline
or dream thru window sills
n if u dont understand that
take the mutha fuckin pill
cause no one could eva rock me but my moms
n she the only u'll catch me sleepin on
otherwise,
every move you make im peepin on
so go head n get ya creepin on
before i get ya bleedin on - menstruation
get my double rainbow on - elation
me plus Him equal eternity - equation
lemme withdraw from earth
with some pebbles in some ring metal
or with jewels in a crown
sry, i let my words meddle
im a master of diguise - tofu
or the master in disguise - Jesús
got planets in my palm - goku
im a voice in this universe
open bibles to hear this verse
sugar tooth for galaxies
gimme the starburst
Steal not just his belt
but Orions man purse
I'll take anything but a loss
if im not last, im first
n if its between that n losing
i'll take my leave in a hearse...

Saturn

a quick freestyle to get yall thinkin...wana hear yall write something...maybe to the same beat?
the flow is as fast as the beat lol Twista style...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zWmzUMH2954&feature=bf_prev&list=FL_LazzGfz-S0&index=1


on my back
in the black
of the night
what a fight
but i'll neva see that nigga pull the trigga
on my cousin again
sweet revenge
my life has been
a fire in which soul of steel was forged in
its alright
cuz the light
of his might
shows the black
from the white
and the right
from the wrong
and the wrong
from the gray
and today
i turn a page
start an age
fuck a sage
break the cage
 and wage
war
cause i am not phased
by the plague
of the aged
you should pray
for a big gun
one or two tons
of ammunition for an
M one nine one one
 cause i bring a dictionary
to the firefight
so you can hear the light
see my voice
smell my noise
and feel my spirit


on my back
in the black
of the night
what a fight
but the blood'll
form a puddle
round my head
when im dead
like i said
to my momma when i left
no regrets
and no petting the past
or kissing the futures ass
they'll tell my legend
to the brethren
he cleaned streets
to the beats
of the tears
of the bleedin men
he played brave
in dragon caves
so that his girl
would keep feelin him
shot fire from his eyes
spat venom from his fangs
killed a bear in 5 tries
and climbed Saturn with bare hands

Hide and Seek

As a habit, I sleep in silence, so that no one may find an avenue into my mind while i rest. last night, however, I slipped up, falling asleep to Imogen Heap's Hid and Seek. This is the dream ensued. I hope it impresses you all as it has myself.


“You ready for your first shift?” Valtava asked with a twirk in one corner of his lips.

“He breathed me ready,” Bator referred to the creation of his kind as he rolled his shoulders in anticipation.

“Rhetorical question,” Valtava mumbled under his massive jaw as they entered the spacious courtyard, “no one has ever been ready.”

“I know bu-,” Bator’s retort was cut off by their arrival in the presence of Catro and his three brothers.

“I am taking Bator on my guard, Galem was supposed to, but his human died last night, and he’s in the rest catacombs, still weeping.”

“Godspeed, for That Hour is come” was the reply from the head like a lion. Bator was in awe every time he looked upon General Catro or his three brothers.
Tremendous creatures, each had four heads, that of a lion, a man, an ox, and an eagle, each brother having four wings. Their skin appeared as moving lava, and the atmosphere around them was in continual electrical discharge.

“Come,” Valtava pushed the awestruck Bator out of the way of the other Gaurdians path, “Let’s move, I’m not gonna be the first Guardian to be late.”

Bator fingered the hilt of his blade.

“You’re not gonna need that,” Valtava droned. “His Majesty is about to move on His people, this will be quick. And don’t get caught up, my human is going to a party tonight, I have no time.”

The two Guardians took a running start as soon as they passed through the gates.

“Earth is in Province 666, but we’re coming in at an angle so as not to attract attention! They’ll be looking!” Valtava had to shout to be heard as the noise grew louder and louder as his massive shoulders began to break the gravitational barrier. Bator slipped into his wake.

“Stay alert! 666 is much darker than the holograms. Lucifer set up a shroud a when the winds were released!”

Bator could see the spiral galaxy nearing quickly. They would need to slow to the speed of light to enter into the Dark System without disrupting the planets’ atmospheres.

“Are we gathering at the southern pole still?” Bator whispered now that they were this close.
“Yes, there will be much less violence there.”

Bator stuck to Valtava like a shadow once they slipped in behind Aquan, or Uranus, as the humans called it.
They floated still as anchors, waiting for their next move. Valtava motioned for Bator to keep his presence hidden. But it was too late.
In a flash of darkness it was upon them. Bator quickly drew his scimitar.
The Dark Form was too agile. It slipped underneath Bator’s slice, and thrust its spear.


THUDDD….


Bator opened his eyes to find the demon's lifeless corpse collapse upon him, the top half of its head amiss.

Valtava hoisted the body towards the gravitational pull of Aquan and holstered the giant Sapphire hammer with which he fought.
“I told you always! Always mask your presence.”
Bator never knew anyone could yell inside a whisper.

“We’ll make a light jump to the southern pole, then find my human.”

Just then the Earth slid around the Sun, coming into view.


Bator was too young to remember the The Great Battle, but he had heard stories of the carnage. He still couldn’t picture the golden streets filled with blood, nor the crystal hills ablaze with cries of terror. This planet though, this infamous 666 provence, this Earth that was known to break Guardians in sorrow, this floating rock which afflicted The King to the point of sealing Himself away to weep daily, must have been 10 times worse.  Bator could hardly tell it was a planet, as millions upon millions of Hosts were waging war with millions upon millions of Fallen.  It was an incredible scene of violence.
Bator felt the vacuum in his abdomen as he looked deeper and gazed upon the surface of the planet. The surface was even worse. The unthinkable sins were being performed on every street corner. The Saints were so few, he couldn’t see any. The looks. The looks on the faces of these humans, these  children of the King, set ablaze Bator’s spirit. He saw rape, murder, wars, fornication, heartbreak on the highest of levels. So this was what Valtava had spoken of. This is the place where Jesus had incarnated Himself. “This,” Bator thought out loud, “THIS IS HELL!!!”

Bator looked frantically for Valtava. He had stopped on the asteroid belt to pray for his human. He must have run out of time. Valtava sensed Bator land next to him.
Valtava pointed into the world, “That’s him, Christopher, the one I told you about. The one following his friends into sin.”

Baltava’s heart broke.

“THE ONE WHOM YOU CHOSE TO PROTECT? BUT HE KNOWS! HE STUDIED! HE PRAYED! HE KNOWS WHAT THE KING DID FOR HIM! DOESN’T HE KNOW WHAT YOU GO THROUGH FOR HIM!? YOU COULD’VE BEEN KILLED!!! WHY? WHY IS HE DOING THIS?”

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=McDgDlnDX0Y

Bator began to scream now.


“WHERE ARE WE??? WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON??? THE KING BREATHED THEM FROM DUST!”
Bator rub his eyes until they bled, frantically trying to see something different then the humans who hung their heads heavy as they trudged through their miserable Godless lives.

“HE CREATED THEM LIKE HIM! WE WERE HERE FIRST! WHY WOULDN’T THEY LISTEN!”
HE WROTE ON THE WALLS FOR THEM! WHY WOULD THEY CHOOSE SUCH TEMPORARY PLEASURE??? THEY DO NOTHING! HOW CAN THEY FEEL ANYTHING? HOW INSENSITIVE ARE THEY??? THEY LEAD STILL LIVES!!! DO THEY THINK THIS A GAME??? THE KING IS ON HIS WAY NOW! AND YET THEY DO NOTHING BUT SIN!!!




[weeks later, 8,866,459,082 humans into the Judgment]




The other galaxies had stopped to listen, the Earth lay in flaming shambles, and all the Guardians stood, feeling as though the judgments of their humans, were the judgment of their own success. Bator reached up and laid his hand on Valtava’s shoulder. It was all he could think to do as the last human Christopher stood to speak before the Universe, and more importantly, His Majesty.

As many before him, the human’s voice was so quiet that he could not be heard by anyone but the King. The Kings tears grew more numerous as the human being told his story. There was a long silence. The trial had gone on for weeks now, yet the King had made sure no one suffered fatigue throughout, so that each being could witness the result of sin, the absence of God. His Majesty’s beautiful, multilayered voice penetrated the heavens, but not His own tears.

“Mm, what’d you say there at the end? That you only meant well? Well of course you did. You said it was all for the best? Of course it was. That I’m just what you need? And you just decided this…”

The King began to sob uncontrollably. His contagious cries brought tears to the faces of the universe, and tore them from their eyes.

“I do not know you.”

The words seemed to ring out forever, as the human fell back into the fire and the dust from whence he came.


The Lord of Hosts finally stood from his throne and turned to Lucifer, who was shackled to the burning planet by chains made of his own darkness.

“You spoke with no feeling, but I believed you. Ransom notes kept falling out of your mouth.  But it seems you have destroyed your own hostages. I AM, THE I AM. THE ALPHA AND THE OMEGA. THE WAGES  OF SIN IS DEATH.”


The fire began to blaze, and the screams of the dying penetrated my ears, and then I woke up…And went straight to church.
Dont fall asleep with music playing, is the moral of this story...among others...


Lucifer's Red One

She says lets fix it before we end up
In our parents lives
Throwin knives
And Kitchen Aids and Cutco
And usin words to cut low
And for low blows
Im like baby what you tryna fix
Is more than just bad habits
These are lifestyles of the poor and broken
We’re the peasants of our shattered worlds
Game Over
Continue?
And we aint got no tokens.
Our parents never gave us this planet
They borrowed it from us
And gave it back after they damned it
Too late to turn it around so lets
Pull cheat codes for the next life
Too late save us, so lets split hearts
And bleed out our separate lives

How did we turn gods green earth
Into lucifers red one
Red lust to red birth
Before your family can become one
Red anger red hate
Before you can relate
Red blood soaks the sand
Where leaders failed to shake hands
Red lust makin ties
Instead of tying marriages
While we all seein red
We put the horse after our carriages











Each of us has become Lucifer's little Red One.


Out Their Misery

angry freestyle - http://listen.grooveshark.com/s/Mash/2uX5MA

lately i been hearin niggas sad
whinin jus a tad
bleedin on dey tampon pad
da blood loss's bad
fail
so ima help em kick the pail
they steady wailin
where my harpoon @
whalin
fa blubberific bitches
no backbone
like flubberific bitches
bein needy
is the worst kinda greedy
wish theyd read dese
lines
minority in my time
and in my generation
no limitations
no patience
for self-pity
im too witty
to be arrested by love
or my lack thereof
i roll solo
make a name for my self
ochocinco
more paper den fedex kinkos
peer pressure
1 hella temptation
s'why black girls got more tracks den train station
no im not hatin
20 years old wit a head fulla horse hair
like u had better shit to do den growa head fulla your hair
DIGRESS
from my stress
here cause i wont rest
til i put dese niggas out dey misery
statuses, posts
all i hear is 'pity me'
i do
ole yeller
im cockin dis gat back fa u
and ya crew of pity-partiers
buncha self-proclaimed martyr-ers
my god man
wrap it up like Saran



please, go off in a corner and die.
no one can give u anything u and God cant have already
n u wont be happy wit not a gotdamn-body til
u figga dat.
n dnt come @ me wit some im too cruel nonsense
it will fall on deaf ears
im insane. spent many a holiday in a loony bin pahtna
n daz wat we crazies do. we say da shit others dnt know they thinkin.
somebody gotta tell em...


Conquer My Ruins

An unworthy freeverse to
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kJERl9MBG-g



A phenomenon of life
straight from St. john’s hospital
the doctor said that if lived
 it would be a miracle
and tho the cold world
had wrote me off already
the thing that saved my life
was my father prayin steady
eighteen years later
they say my baby girl is the like
in selfish fear and sorrow
I left her to lose her fight
So when the mountains crumble
And the earth turns to space
It’ll take more than I can manage
Just to look her in the face

Like a baby sea turtle
I try my best to grasp my earth
Right out the egg we gettin killed
Im still tryna grasp the earth
And even if I make it
Im in an ocean of hurt
Im sposed to filter thru the trash
And try not to get murked
So when im havin a bad day
And I come off a lil strong
Just know without dat same strength
I wouldn’t’ve made it this long
I aint got it all together
I just spit wat I kno
And should my beliefs shatter again
Im prepared to let em go

There once was a nigga I knew
His name Yahweh
And I ignored silently
as they took him away
And as they beat him, cut him
and speared him to death
I turned a blind eye
and didn’t try to protest
my father had always said
before he too was dead
that every conscious sin I committed
was a thorn in Yahweh’s head
like Paul said, the things I hate
I find myself doin
All these sins I don’t wanna commit
Is what now leads to my ruin

Barely lived through today
Im supposed to do it tomorrow
I raise my sword against the grief
Against the tears, pain, and sorrow
I’ll do it again
Next year and forever
I vow to conquer these unknowns
And never say never
So whip out the stone
And write the shit down
I always went hard
And I would not bow
I fought the good fight
What I willed, it transpired
Im the last one standin
Cause no one could carry this fire
But if instead I should fall
and u get splashed with my blood
Just use it as evidence
that you da only nigga dat should


Yes We Can

to Dark Fantasy - Kanye West


Sir Cryptic:

she said could we get much higher
like yeast or a phoenix
or dough on fire
im not low on liars
even though im cautious
wit those im close to
puttin more care
into pickin then most do
im tired of the work
n the kirkin on everyone
tired of the image
of the ichor
of icarus
after he's fallen from the sun
me im tryna get high on mount olympos
enjoy the nymphos of the gods
give a nod to zeus and dionysus
engage in revelry wit the wildest rebels
bumpin to heavy metal
ima settle down
wit hades crown
but keep it upstairs
where im givin hera sex hair
cuz she tryna get back at her hubby
i give it to her good
even though she doesn't love me
then i wrap it up tidy
n dip to the perfumed room of aphrodite
i can't get much more elevated
then i am right now
all im worried bout
is the long way down
cuz life a house of cards
that falls quicker
the surer you are
so ima enjoy my time
of freakiness wit this
the goddess of lust
hopin zeus don bust the door down
'fore i bust

COULD WE GET MUCH HIGHER?
OH, OH, OH,
OH, OH, OH, OH,
OH, OH


Lady Jay:

them bitches ask around, who the fuck's Mariah?
i'm the best in town, ask who's flyer
ii walk around with my breasts out, chest out
prideful lil kitty from the city, that's DC!
haven't you heard, i'm the bird that's the word
everyone knows my word is the word
and when ii kick it to yah
you can fuck wat yah heard
cuz when you hear this cypher
they will tell you don't try her
and she's the baddest
no lies
more head than a cabbage
nice thighs
every beat she attacks it
she stays nice
and baby girl's a loose cannon
but her swag's tight
ii can talk about me all day
kick it like haters who got more shit to say
blah blah yeah you just more spit than spray
come and hit me up when your shit ain't on layaway

COULD WE GET MUCH HIGHER?
OH, OH, OH,
OH, OH, OH, OH,
OH, OH


Lupine:

if im sippin grey goose
u sippin ugly duckling
and if u on ya grind
then i am on my fucking
if you breaking bread
then i am at my Passover
if we ballin i win
wit 12 baskets left over
im on a boat bitch
sippin out a keg
someone call Neptune
i gave Ariel fish legs
anything you can do
can do better
dont care how nice ya flow is
my waterfall wetter
show-stopper?
ball-crasher
skyscraper?
spaceslasher
Lamborghini wit da doors?
please, my rep is way faster
adrenaline in ya veins?
midi-chlorians.
so now that i forced you
to the brink of extinction
sit back n watch me blow
like an extinct sun
i did everything but die
so high im am the pie
in many niggas skies
standin on my space slasher
a nigga got bored
wit makin people stumped
could i get much higher?
cuz if not ima jump...

COULD WE GET MUCH HIGHER?
OH, OH, OH,
OH, OH, OH, OH,
OH, OH


Game, Boy

JSBeaux:

Sir Lupine said;

"....cuz its not like i even have Smash-energy... i just need estrogen beside me..."

so Sir Beaux flows;

not like I have Smash-energy
just need some estrogen beside me

granted.

due to this extended absence

I would smash like I was mario, or one of the bro's
super sized like I was ready to fight
but might take it slow: lucario
careful not to shoot my gun: falco
browse her-like I was bowser

dig into her like peach

cobbler

clobber

her like I was The Hand

at the end

we'd begin again
character change,

go.


Lupine:

second to rhyme
second rate lines
second rate princess
but Daisy still a dime
she come when i call
i call her Pikmin
im not whipped like Mario
I whip like Sheik
n i whips pussy
so's to make a bitch shriek
wind up the fist fuck
Donkey fuckin Kong
Falcon Punch the pussy
wit a Ganondorf schlong
it runs so deep she sneezin all day
Pik-achoo shawty
the names Mewtwo - i dont play.


JSBeaux:

ice climb my way way to the tops of yo peaks
claim my throne, take my seat

yeah,

keep begging for some King D.d.d...

shit get real
switch to kirby; play with the pink

bounce that ass like the same.

slide down the middle like wario
blow out yo cartridge; nintendo
havin you restart this; level re-do

but I leave you with a question:

continue?


Lupine:

3..2..1

yes

push A

for the quick attack
ima push her reef back
Jiggle her Puffs like the Wolf that i am
she breathin in n out like Kirby
rollin over like Sonic sayin
OOO what a night!
She feel she met her knight
n i swing my cape like Metaknight
Snake could learn from my tactical insertion
da puff jigglin was just a diversion
like Ness im hittin homeruns all up in her crotch
im Mr. oldschool nigga,
daz my Game & you can Watch.


JSBeaux:

naw this our game, and you just watched

check your pulse now,

mind obliterated or not?

I think she's done now,

honies chillin at our stop.

now they on the dick now,

is that game, boy, or not?

game... stop.


[ejects cartridge, blows, inserts]


Cory Dashiell:

reset..

back to the main screen again..

same plan,
roll with the same team again

act slick,
hit you with the same beam again

foxy chick,
hawking in the arwing again

lame fans,
throwing em out the ring again

And yet yall still sleep on me??

...Jiggly must be tryna sing again

Link with me once,
and I pull you in like a hook
Blow you away like samus

I'm black, erratic

the game's easy, like automatic

and

now watch me cook..


Mr. Darkside

Lupine:

Someone turn the light on cuz it seems so dark
actually dim it dwn cuz im recievin light
but the more light i recieve
the more plights can be grieved
and i swear hope in humanity
well mine is bereaved
cuz the the insanity pervades the feeble
i love persons but i hate people
as a soldier of Yahweh i should help the astray
but the path i travel is a bad example today
besides its so hard lovin these people who're borderline tards
its like lookin back in a mirror before i got this far
n Lord knows i never wanna go back
so i turn mine
n never give these niggas the day or the time...


JSBeaux:

the day

nor time


has come for me to re-associate any of my previous associates

associate yo position in life to this dick

and you a bitch

so in other words fuck you, you blew it.


harsh or real?


I mean, you decide

you kinda already left my mind

kinda like I readily left you in the way side

like I read ill and cocked on my waists' side

and brought these words from my ass,


so I guess I'ma be on the, I'm the shit side


and you on the bleachers

and I be one of the coaches

and you be one of the spectators

and I be one of them play-makers.

and you could be my score taker

and this one was a win,

and since you was watchin,


I guess being a loser makes you a winner by association.


Death of Cupid

Recent Txt convo...

Fallon Jimenez: Did you know there's a Black Bear (my nickname by Fallon) Creek in Northern Oklahoma?

Me: Ye i dug it a long time ago. I was pissed...and drunk

Fallon: Explain the red clay. Who did you kill and bury there?

Me: Cupid

Fallon: Oh good job.

Me: Ye he fucked me n some Russians over...never liked him anyway. fuckin fag.

Fallon: No hard feelings on this side. He was an ass.

Me: Ye. He was all like, "Bitch i'm important!", n "Circle of Life bruh!".  And then ise like, "NIGGA PLEASE."
*cap cap double-tap*

Fallon: Shoulda recorded that...that would rule youtube.

Me: Ye well. Hindsight is 20/20.

Fallon: Did you celebrate?

Me: Ye, every Valentine's Day i take my divorced friends to the sacred spot and we hold a bonfire, drink heavily, hold hands and sing old motown blues...

Fallon: Priceless...



Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Bananas and Monkeys

Original source unknown.

Start with a cage containing five monkeys.

Inside the cage, hang a banana on a string and place a set of stairs under it. Before long, a monkey will go to the stairs and start to climb towards the banana. As soon as he touches the stairs, spray all of the other monkeys with cold water.

After a while, another monkey makes an attempt with the same result - all the other monkeys are sprayed with cold water. Pretty soon, when another monkey tries to climb the stairs, the other monkeys will try to prevent it.

Now, put away the cold water. Remove one monkey from the cage and replace it with a new one. The new monkey sees the banana and wants to climb the stairs. To his surprise and horror, all of the other monkeys attack him.

After another attempt and attack, he knows that if he tries to climb the stairs, he will be assaulted.

Next, remove another of the original five monkeys and replace it with a new one. The newcomer goes to the stairs and is attacked. The previous newcomer takes part in the punishment with enthusiasm! Likewise, replace a third original monkey with a new one, then a fourth, then the fifth. Every time the newest monkey takes to the stairs, he is attacked.

Most of the monkeys that are beating him have no idea why they were not permitted to climb the stairs or why they are participating in the beating of the newest monkey.

After replacing all the original monkeys, none of the remaining monkeys have ever been sprayed with cold water. Nevertheless, no monkey ever again approaches the stairs to try for the banana. Why not? Because as far as they know that's the way it's always been done round here.

And that, my friends, is how company policies are made.

Let It Pass

Sir Cryptic ft. Lupine

http://listen.grooveshark.com/#/s/Mist/2uLmUb


Sir Cryptic:

What means
ya walkin in the right direction?
how she knw
if she twirkin
the right erection?
how he know
if he in the right section
rather than the left?
no further than a text
from havin sum sexy
rubbin on his pecs
callin him a king
technically s not
incorrect
(there's the lack of a ring)
but s a matter of disrespect
and s not in correct
he needs sin correction
a slight redirection
for renewed deflection
against the tempting
that he's sensing
all around
he's tensing
on high alert
watching for girls
who lookin to deskirt
and work they charm
claimin no harm
but he knows better
so he watches
the girls who watchin shiny watches
wit shiny eyes
that faith itself despises
he was set on stayin alone
but nothins set in stone
he might get medusa'd
wit the drink he's feelin too good
even the most sure
fall prey to novelty's allure
and are prone to moan
however silent
the noise exists
and once you enter
there is no exit
the heart is tender
so if you tryna own one
you shouldn't try to rent her
shouldn't try to bone an extra one
im talkin bout extra miss number two
she's chillin nude
on ya bedsheets
how you let it get here
sheer audacity
of your id
is the difference
between what you might have done
n what you did
diff betwixt havin a wife before a kid

what's right?
i don't know
but i know what's wrong
n it started wit a thong
started wit a dick
ina back of her tonsils
ended wit him
playin titties like a console
ps2
what are you
into at the moment after
no more happiness
or laughter
guilt heavy on ya chest
like she was while you was floatin on ya buzz
now ya honey bee
made you feel unworthy
of ya queen
done wit obscene act number one
now to pure act number two
you return
n she's so sure of you
smiling whiling away the time
ignorant of your crime
you play innocent
but in a sense
this makes you more of what you despise
and chilled beneath the lies lies
lust
that leads you to evil act number three
which is the same as one
except there's no need to try to redirect
where ya feet are headed
or to be inebriated
gettin more indebted to ya extracurricular
activity she's gettin worse
words bore in ya soul like a cavity
return so late
thinkin "im hopin she ain't mad at me"
why would she be
confused perhaps
at what you call a lapse in judgement
but she has no begrudgin

you never got caught
never did again
but in the end
you feel worse than you did before
stuck wit crappy thoughts galore
from beatin cuttin whores
so what i knw?
not much
but i knw what shouldn't be
and what is
be on guard
what you most sure of
is most hard
if you hidin the dark
be honest
Aphrodite
and the mighty Adonis
were split asunder
by the blunder
of a boars tusk
don't let the chick
attracted to your musk
stab her back into your dick
or grab your heart n get a hold of it
evil tricks only need a touch
to start moldin it




















Lupine:

You want somethin solid dat wont eva change?
Me n Cryptic stay spittin flame
til dey close da gun range

My last girl built boats of solid beliefs
dat float over reefs
of uncertainty
in a uncertain sea
but me i learned to swim
so i wont go down with a ship
e.g. keep a grip
on heart-broken vessel
daz leakin air bubbles
if my dreams crumble
i'll build golems from the rubble
da Hubble cant see past
da universe's walls
n spaceballs
so y niggas think dey seen it all?
humility reveals you
the dust of a planet
pride is vain
disband it
dis bandit live wild
knowin his life ends wheneva
i will neva live mild
no one promised me foreva
anything can happen
at any given time
i thrice saw a bad girl
leave a good guy at the drop of a dime
or maybe a bank account
but u kno wat im sayin
politicians switch policies
depends on whos payin
whereva da wind blows
is where i'll be found
even language cant be
pinned to the ground

A E I O U and sometimes Y
A nEgro If he Owe U will frequently lie
but to expect shit not to change
is out there quite far
even ya wife dated who u professed to be
yet married who you are
for now
shrug ya eyebrow
and leave it to God
da earths makeup gets smeared
as we tread thru da sod...

My Resolve

http://listen.grooveshark.com/#/s/Feel+On+It+Inst+/2EftNK

3/4/10 - Lt. Coleman
28th OSN VV "Vitjaz" Spetsnaz
Yinchuan

They mention this path, straight and narrow
they said it was no easy task, and that prayer was essential
but i think another something is necessary since shipping on prayers aint always expedential
the carnage on my path is abundant, filled with bleeding bones and marrow
no matter how much good i do, i cant sleep at night.

I saw a middle aged man about an hour ago
he had two children, two parents, and a wife
he raised an assault rifle at me - i raised a Deagle first and ended his life
the .45 slug split through the cheekbone separating death from life, and face from bone
i no longer envision those around me when i fight.

I dont think about what i do, its just a reflex in a game
my mind erased the faces from my conscious so that i might survive
i see people around me weeping on the red sand of agony that saps out their lives
some have stopped even base functions. they've stopped eating sleeping and thinking all the same
like rusted robots they lumber until one with a faster trigger finger has them in sight

I save lives only to watch them unceremoniously ended when i put them down
bullets of hatred, grenades of indifference, and mines of begrudge-ment claim all
the wounded lay crying out to no one. soldiers that can still move walk right past where they fall
no one tries anymore. even i found that id be killing many later, so save a few now.
i tossed the last mortally wounded fellow my canteen of water, just cause it felt right

I guess the other thing necessary is what others forget to pack the most of - resolve
they can take your weapons, your armor, your friends, even you heart, but never your will
i myself will not stop fighting until i am no more, or until God himself is killed
i can imagine myself at a bar with any of these people. how did men come to this? a mystery to be solved
i pray not to die. i fear i am not yet in the light.

[p.s.] i think i have finally gotten the hand of writing with my left hand, this third week since i lost my right arm.


Know Me Now?

http://listen.grooveshark.com/#/s/Oblivion+Instrumental+/2uPhEK

Downplayed past
got to kno me too fast
not da kid you think i am
dis aint a nursery n i aint sam
doctor said da discoloration's a stigma
i think my iris leaks my evil enigma
look at me say im swole
na but my hatred makes my muscles whole
scars on my arms
hang like wars on demon charms
joke wit femmes bout wakin up in salient ecstasy
false i wake all night from flashbacks - violent for who's next to me
outwardly phlegmatic a surface calm
my brain static harbors constant qualms
the dark images of your nightmares
is my reality, i live wat you fear
they say any thug busts slugs
but a real killa stabs
but im past the shankin hugs
i kill niggas wit infinite strikes to the abs
straight strangle a nigga dead
starin each other down til he stare at da back of his head
you thought that telekinesis n telepathy was fake
you naive cause both of those things reside in my wake
dont think demons n angels fight far up in the sky
my demon steady tryna talk to me, i can SEE him, he right here by my side
backwards writin, horror films, symbols, places, n objects
watch people fall in to demon traps jus a piece of The Prince's project
you think the music you listen to sometimes has no point
beings revealed to me that some artists worship conjoint
i sit like a gargoyle observin da city
my eyes hold you but hold no pity
i set da line far back so no one could eva cross it
dont eva try to find it - it'll be the day my demon lost it



Beef for Breakfast

almost noon but im still undacovers
hidin from da world like im undercover
flippin out my seat
like paul walker flip from heat
to pedal metal on da street
ha i need ten minute ride
so i dial da numbers of my girls
wit ten-second hides
skin silky smooth
back got dat valley-groove
my tongue finna move-
shit its 2:00!

roarin out da den
cause yall jus woke da krakken
off my thousand-year slumber
cause deres more to be written
dragons did exist in da time before yall
but i did so much firespittin i retired em all

my glock spits rocks
n ya girls rock ma cock
but i rock socks off
harder den pippy longstockings
ima long-stocked king
like pharaohs before famines
n yall gypsy fairies wonder y da earth so barren
its cuz da Devil fuckin da world
n his dick is our axis
spinnin round n round everything
is orbital
its horrible
yall jus found dat history circles like a shark
round da martyrs in waters dark
on da equator center
but da government stay centered
so dey watch us spin around em
like a teacup ride at disney
we dont ask questions cuz we dizzy


665 a sin short of the mark
God recruitin fa me hard but my past is dark
he warned me bout da beast wit da woman ridin tandem
im sadistic so i finger-fucked her wit C40 in my hand n
fed napalm to da beast
put it out its grief
den i curbstomped da bitch
n ground up her teeth
crushed a snakehead wit my heel
like a ship on da reef
n daz how come me n Satan
got black angus beef



Master That

Im tryna get back to flowin...
Immortal helpin me out...
Dis is me warmin up to return to da front lines
don be afraid to google wat u don grasp lol
freestyled to Roger That...


M-m-master dat

Coldest winter of the decade but im 0° K
cold like da USSR fightin da USA
wish i could cage up my flo n give u time to think hard
but u couldnt capture wat i spit if u had DVR

Dis da easter bunny special so adjust ya rabbit ears
like Mr. McGregor im cookin all ya fears
got niggas hatin on me cuz im da kid wit da tricks
haha silly rabbits, im da kid wit da Trix

Bitches call me ET cause i my fingers is enlight-ened
AmbiDexter give her gasms wit da left n den da right hand
ash me dick like a cigarette in her pussy when its wet
apparently mines looks like a Monte Cristo silhouette

Predictable niggas got ya attention wit sex?
Jamie Foxx Unpredictable, see what comes next
some ass n some cars blow ya seven percent mind
suck da shaft of my wisdom deeper than that of a mine

The proverbs i spit shud be called verbal Riley's
believe it or not i slip u knowledge pills slyly
say unbelievable shit you cant begin to imagine
Illuminati runs da world, Barack's a puppet in da pageant

You want somethin done right dey say do it yaself
daz why niggas stay single wit Kleenex on da shelf
you a bitch masturbater but im a master-beater
white men call me Nat Turner, cause im a fuckin master-beater

M-m-master dat...



Wolf Pup

My own words, but inspired by the music of TV on the Radio...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LfUv6r3iVOw



Troubled little wolf pup
that
never wants to wake up
cuz
every day you build walls
and
every night your tears fall
o
orphaned and abused
say ur
predestined to lose
but
you dont have to listen
jus
dream up your conviction

Aimlessly in love
with
more souls then you should fuck
with
your heart could hold the whole world
but
in your arms only one girl
heh
better to have loved and lost
than
never to have loved at all
but
are those words of virtue
just
there to nurse an old wound

Your soul sings the same tune
while
you howl at the same moon
the
more you cry for change
the
more things stay the same
your
passion is insistent
your
hatred is persistent
with
hounds of hell you call home
but
you howl cause your still alone

Weathered little wolf pup
that
no one needs to help up
con-
-tinue to your gold land
where
triumph dyes the gold sand
If
heaven's past Orion
and
mars conceals Zion
then
shoot for your ivory pie
so
if you fail you die...

...amongst the starry skies...


Silenced Voices

http://listen.grooveshark.com/#/song/Dance+With+The+Devil+Inst/160772

I once knew this man by the name of Lodante
He was respectful and strong, with only wise things to say
He liked being around people he but hated their ways
So alone and in thought, he spent most of his days
His family loved him, his friends, some cared too
And to some of those reading, he may seem just like you
But there was something about Dante that most had misread
They passed it off as odd. These voices in his head...

The day that Dante had learned to stand strong
Was the same day his best friendships went wrong
He was small for bein six, yet unnaturally powerful
But his feelings were sensitive, making him easily sorrowful
He would die for his friends, given any odd case
But that day they mocked him, called him 'gorilla' to his face
So Dante ran past his mother, and fled from the scene
Hidin behind his bed from those who were mean
He was hurt and confused, tears flowed like a stream
His head ached from the noise, the voices that screamed

The day that Dante learned respect and his place
Was the same day life hit him with a brick in the face
The night before he had argued with his dad
He said hateful things just because he was mad
His dad tried to reason, to get through to his kid
Dante yelled 'forget you! Wouldn't care if you were dead'
That morning he awoke to a call from his friend
The friend asked if he had heard, Dante hung up his end
He ran to the hospital where his mom cried in disarray
She sobbed 'Please sit down, D, your father just passed away'
Dante stumbled back as his legs began to fail
His vision went black as the dark voices wailed

A few years later Dante mustered courage to talk
He would apologize to his family for the hurt he had caused
He asked his mom n sis to sit and please hear him out
Then he stumbled through the subject he always cried about
He cried 'Im so sorry for the things that i said
I wanna tell dad its my fault, my fault that he's dead'
But before Dante finished, his mom got up to leave
He begged to stay and grabbed on to her sleeve
But she brushed him away and confirmed his guilt
He sank to his knees. He sobbed and he wilt
Dante dabbed at his tears with the edge of his shirt
He downed many pills as the voices sang of his hurt

Dante danced with the Devil to play off his hate
He killed a man once staring right into his face
He drew blood as a demon to earn the Devil's trust
He was nearly consumed by wrath and by lust
In the moment that he would've sold his soul
God saved him with a deal that was made long ago
Dante thanked God for his last minute intervention
But the voices in his head he neglected to mention

One day Dante learned to always think wise
But he learned at a cost, the cost of a life
He and his girl were kissin hard in his car
Passion turned physical in a room that wasn't far
They both lusted each other a little too much
Penetration with no condom, just bare to the touch
A few months later they made a decision
A decision that would forever haunt both their visions
Their nights had no rest and they always slept ill
The voices in their heads now included the baby they had killed

A few months later they stopped seeing each other
He was a scarred father and she a grieving mother
Awhile after he tried talk, to discuss their scars
But she wouldn't reply, the breakup was too hard
So he turned away rejected by her disdain
But the only things there were the voices of pain

Soon enough Dante learned to move on
But the voices always remained all night until dawn
Now things were different, he'd met another girl
This one was different and became his whole world
They were opposite forces and always disagreed
But at the end of the day each other they pleased
They spent every day together, always hand in hand
One day would be hell, the next would be grand
They persevered through annoyance and angry words
They both should've left but their love was not deterred
One night they sat having a verbal altercation
Tired of fighting, they were losing determination
Dante leaned forward to tenderly kiss her head
But she backed away bitter, returning a mean look instead
He hung his head low and offered to take her home
Then returned to his house where he now sat alone
Motionless he was, too sad to become vexed
He dreaded too much what was about to come next
So Dante opened the drawer and pulled out his .9
Stuck the barrel under his chin, and silenced the voices for all time...


Rude Solitude

Blood splatters decorate the walls
frames of horror n sorrow decorate da halls
kitchen dirty from da works he couldnt make
fireballs stain da walls
drugs he tried to create
holes in da paneling from when he lost it
turn da knob only tears come out da faucet
bills litter the counters with menace of rent
only one side of da bed messy
the other always vacant
mirror cracked
couldnt handle the image
of a man black
whose eyes turned red from da carnage
fridge is barren
da garbage reeks
nourishment not an option
mind over body for weeks
winds of strife blow in da windows
from da adjacent street
red footprints on acrylic
from skinless feet
follow da crimson brick road
to the wizard of dis anguish
down on his knees
to relay his last wish
cause his stomach is hungry
but his heart is famished!
he sees dat any man
can stand
and take his life into is own hands
but few can take a knee and
surrender control to a bigger man
"God save my soul when my body
gives way. Let my mistakes serve
as signs for those go astray.
I know my parents in heaven,
and be there they should.
But if you decide i ain't worthy
tell them they did all they could."

The man limps to door
as a pretty girl knocks
he peers thru da peephole
n undoes the locks
she stays on the step
she's toured the house before
although she calls him a friend
she ventures in no more
she's looks his adverse
all pretty, no scratches
and a dulce purse
"I see what you been through,
i sympathize i do,
but the only thing that needs change
here is you. You don't have to live here,
it's not as bad as you think. Clean this
place up and put flowers by the sink."
His heart was warmed
but then it turned hot
didn't she know?
you can wash dirt but not rot
"Your concern is admirable
few would still drop in,
but this you cannot fix,
you see, im locked in.
I know why i am here,
thus complaints, i have none.
You were born in a suburb;
I in a slum.
You've had your struggles
assisted by loved ones
while i toil away
motivated by dead ones.
I'd be dead by now
given in to martyrdom
but i refuse to give an inch,
give in, or even barter some."

Then the man realized he
didn't have to hide.
His voiced changed up
and his emotions switched sides.

"YOU CANT TELL THAT THIS PAIN
IS NOT FOUNDED!
YOU CANT TELL ME THAT MY
LIFESTYLE AINT WELL-GROUNDED!
EVERYDAY I WORK HERE
BUT NOT FOR A PROGRESS.
I ONLY GRIND HERE CAUSE
EVERY DAY I HAVE LESS!
I'M ON AN ESCALATOR TO HELL
BUT IM RUNNIN AWAY!
AND IF NIGHT COMES N I AINT BACKSLID,
ITS BEEN A FUCKIN GOOD DAY!
YOU LAUGH WHEN YOU'RE HAPPY,
YOU CRY WHEN IN PAIN.
BUT I LAUGH WHEN ITS SUNNY,
I LAUGH WHEN IT RAINS.
I LAUGHED WHEN I MOVED HERE
FROM THE COLD OUTSIDE,
I LAUGHED WHEN MY BOY WAS KILLED
AND MY MOMMA HAD DIED.
I LAUGHED WHEN GOD MADE ME A DEAL
DAT WOULD SAVE MY SOUL.
THEN I LAUGHED AT THE DEVIL
CAUSE HE AINT EVEN KNOW.
I LAUGH CAUSE ITS ALL IM GOOD AT ANYMORE
IF I DIDNT I'D'VE BEEN FADED THRU DA FLOOR.
I GUESS TO MASTER SADNESS WOULDA BEEN GRAND
BUT ALL I GOT TO WORK WIT IS DA RAGE IN MY HAND
I RIPPED THE ROSARY OFF NECK
CUZ MATERIALS CANT CONNECT.
BUT EVERY NIGHT I KNEEL
BY THE BED DAT I MADE.
I ASK GOD TO AFFLICT ME
IF REALITY FADES.
SO DAMN IF YOU THINK I BEAR TOO MUCH SORROW,
I DID IT TODAY N IMA DO IT TOMMORAH!"

With that ya boy thanked her
n slammed da door in her face.
yours truly retreated back into my place,
which has very few rooms but so much space.
For the man which i spoke of is none other than I.
But i ask when you finish dis and continue with time,
dont kill me by forgettin the legend of the House of my Mind...



Darkness is Spreading

they grin at their perfected invention
a grin masked in righteousness

a demonic countenance
made holy by tradition and thus still holding.

they have created the ultimate barrier.
a wall against darkness, a safeway for light

however this light is artificial,
and the darkness lives and breathes...

this gateway is the portal to carefree living,
the X on the map of success,

the highway leading away from strife,
whisking away from all slums...

but this magical rabbit hole,
this stairway to heaven,

has been encrypted with a toll,
a toll that has stolen ideals,

its price is relationships,
its funding is bonds,

it demands the essence of some,
and gladly seizes the lives of others..

the casualties of those this gate rejects
is as the stars among the heavens,

the sand upon the beach,
for the darkness out weighs the light,

they know this, thus they have built it
thus they run, mastering this invention created ages ago,

the artificial light walks through the checkpoint unscathed,
while the darkness meets a rising drawbridge that slams shut,

thudding with the final authority of one locked inside hell's gates,
one locked away, and the key thrown away? no, for the key was never made.

they are made to march through the valley of the shadow of death
a minimal amount of the many emerging through the pillaging smoke at the finish line,

but these silent refugees,
these abandoned soldiers,

they have surged on through the hatred,
they have repulsed prejudice and decapitated bigotry

disembowling segregation,
they arrive at the portals destination bloodied, but unyielding.

the makers of this contraption,
of this hideous doorway that favors the preponderance but bars the minority,

huddle amongst themselves, hiding from the blistering glares,
the rebuking eyes of the wronged champions

they watch from their own shadows as the oppressed
help their kind from the gutters, healing their wounds,

bandaging their pride, dressing their sorrows,
curing the jadedness, and commemorating the lost...

still the route of the self righteous,
the aperture in justice remains standing...

...that is why i have come.
stroll lightly to the toll booth.

they wonder whats the hold up?
why is this darkie holding up the line?

i stare with loathing from behind my shades.
sir please present your ID so we can decide if you're...eligible...

"eligible?" i laugh...
i ram the business end of my cigar onto his forehead...

he and the attendant behind him scream in surprise
i turn to her an remove my shades, the dark circles in my eyes reflecting off my leather jacket

and mirroring the state of my soul
"i did not come to be judged by you," i shot.

realizing she was near her end, she spat, "darkness is the absence of light!"
a favorite insult of their kind...

"then allow this absence to consume you, and devour everything you've ever known."
in a flash, the blade of my ninjaken reveals their innards to the outside world.

they look up in horror, unable to speak before the deathly bark of my glock
drowns out their last words...or pleas...

"scatter," i cast the word in the direction of the petrified crowd.
those who move fast enough are spared, the rest shot. some more than once.

i turn towards the portal device, it towers above me in defiance.
"now," i pull a cigarette from my pocket, and return my shades to their leashing position above my nose

lighting the roach, i stare up at the grotesque swirling opening.
"...to burn this mother fucker to the ground..."




"they called him colored, as a hateful term for their brother,
but a false claim at best, for black is truthfully shade devoid of color."


Free Falling

http://listen.grooveshark.com/#/song/Flj+Tav+K/12833528


The greatest warrior of all now falls
to his knees and shelters his hearts crumbling walls
he pulls out the sword from his torso, and hears the ribs crack
to much energy to reach the arrows still in his back

his world once eutopia, now lies post-armaggedon
all the buildings ablaze, and the sand is now reddened
the country he once loved is now overrun
by pride selfishness and anger that leaks from the slums

he watched his father fall right before his eyes
he had accidentally slashed him while fighting unwise
his only friend now drained away lifeless
the rest of his family soon dragged away by the darkness

he screamed for his comrades but most turned their heads
a few shot at him, afraid that he too was to dread
when he had saved all he could and then stood alone
he got out of dodge hacking, slaying away from his home

now on the hill that stood aside the city in sin
caring not to look back, knowing what lied within
now on his knees that also withdrew their allegiance
his body the last thing that had spared him total grievance

one arm pressuring the wound, the other edging him higher
his blood glowing a red gold, from the reflection of fire
still it could not match the flicker in his eyes with which he defied passing
many times he was tempted but each time pushed on laughing

he paused for a moment and rolled to his side
a dangerous break in his life or death stride
he dipped his finger in his chest, felt his heart raging vile
and drew on one cheek an uncracked heart and a smile

for even in dying they could not keep him down
while fools complained of broken hearts with self-pitying frowns
but alas he kept crawling he was almost out of time
he never stopped for long throughout life, lest it leave him behind

one step ahead was his motto and rule
it was how he battled life's hardships while keeping his cool
but his purpose was up and he'd said his last prayer
thanked his Lord for the experience and swore to meet Him in the air

in the air was his goal, his mission was almost complete
for at the edge of the hill lay a cliff for thousands of feet
his lungs grew heavy, he was coughing up blood
he unstrapped and threw his gear off, never hearing the thud

he mustered the strength to gain footing once more
he spit, then he smiled, and he threw himself o'er
he twirled in the air like a leaf in the autumn
even in his death he never hit rock bottom

for fear was his motivator [he was afraid of heights], it drove him thru hellfire
he was still falling in mad euphoria when his time expired
the thick grunged scarred heart now shone his purity through the walls
as it hammered one last beat, he only wanted to fall...


Sir Cumference

Inspired by the ridiculous amount of floetry in motion by my lyrical peers lately [yall niggas wont stop! think yall James baldwin huh?]

i warned trudy...
dis one's fa my girl Q...

im bout to rape ya minds,
well not really, cause its consensual...

i try to entertain
in fact i trained
to not be lame.
well rounded gentleman was my aim
knight of the round table i became
and you could name me Sir Cumference
so i draw circles wit my fingers
on her thighs
ecstasy lingers in her hazel eyes
my eyes lingered on her chest-pies
perfect circles
r squared times pie
look like mastercard symbol
so i give her credit
not debit
'fore she have me indebted
but she da queen
im tryna get her to knight me
i make her fiend
so i can night her
but she want words
"here's the deal
i must be made to squeal
i am no easy feat
u gotta drop a beat
an ery rhyme dat please me
is another square inch u can tease me
wit ya lips
til my hips twitch
now go on bitch
an make me cum!"

i'se like iono about da bitch thing
now damn sho i do da hips thing
but watch me do da switch thing
ima gain ya mental loins
'fore our pelvis' conjoin
like twins
an we'll connect like em too
you read my mind and i'll read you
spread ya legs like da doors
of a bookstore
see if i find what im lookin for...

cloak ya lobes in aloes an honey
fills ya head wit dreams dat result in a runny
pussy
you want da security, da comfort, to just be successful
i'll make sure it happens, an keep it from gettin stressful
pennies fa ya thoughts but ya mind is priceless
i'll reiterate dis rhyme before ur goodnight kiss


now lemme make a suggestion fa ya daily routine
tired of you overworkin to feel like you doin big things
baby bust out so i can bust it wide open
ya trapped in dat 9-5 but im tryna elope 'n
i need fa you to get deep wit me
before i get deep in you
three fingered symbol wit my hand
one to make you think
two in da pink

keep my words close
like a priest clutch a rosary
words i whisper in ya ear
smell somethin like rosemary
lay you down to dream
on a bed of lyrical poinsettias
my kevlar promises protect
like a thousand berettas

but truthfully love's a battle
and if yours captured me an hung me fa war crimes
i'd gladly accept defeat - few men die in the arms of dimes

but back to da story
at this point in my lyrical glory
i had completely unclothed her
in our verbal strip poker
lips nibblin
nipples 'n
she dribblin
forgot where she is
but i know where im at
kissin on her ears
ticklin her backside sick
to distract her fears
of my sizable dick
i penetrated her mind
wit it like da Berlin wall
now watch me make her fall
stuck it in
knees bucklin
she moans da satisfaction
she addicted to my action
i say mediocre sex a refugee
im da one dat sent it packin
regardless
regard this:
mind over body
so be mindful of da body...



An Apparition

I only wish you all could wake up in tears as I have after being granted an insight to true sorrow...

I will tell you of a dream where color is dead
In fact the only viewable lighting is the blue and the red
This vision takes place in a feudal dimension
This new story of old is fraught with tension
The only music that plays is Russian Roulette
At the end of this day a life was in debt...


The army looms in strategic menace covering the burned hills to the West.
In the remains of the woods to the East, the barbarians wait in anticipation.
The General paces the front lines rallying the troops, long hair sweeping with each
change in course.
These are the troops of a warring nation, hungry to devour, and they would follow their
seemingly immortal General to the cliffs of the universe.

With one long cry of infernal rage and the sound of many rams horns
the fearsome army charges towards the last stand of their foes.
But these are no ordinary opponents.
These barbarians are also a warring culture, but they are only, a warring culture.
They eat, drink, breathe, and dream bloodshed from their time in the womb and battle tactics
are their masterpieces.
The army slams into the forest, trees falling under the flurry of swinging longswords
and maces, yet, where are the fallen barbarians, or their war cries?
It is quiet, the quiet before a storm.
And now the gale forces of the giant pale men fall with fury.
They seem to swoop in from every angle, falling from the trees an heavens
and rising from the wood and dead leaves.

The battle rages on into the night, as the great army's numbers diminish, the soldiers
being hacked down amidst their surprise.
The remaining soldiers fearlessly defend against the horde of large brutes
casting the faith and eyes on one image alone

The General atop the ridge is merely a silhouette in the moonlight.
But a fearsome shadow is cast against the hills.
The helmet has been removed for ease of movement, the long hair lashing about.
But a lithe figure it is that is seen for The General is a woman, a woman of the
strongest genre.
She invites every enemy closer with a cold glare and the moonlight shines on her
movements, each swing of her sword with purpose and defiance.
Every foe to approach her is swiftly and powerfully cut down in one efficient movement.
The barbarians are confused, it was unknown to them that a woman existed
who possessed such might.

However, even the General cannot put a end to numbers, and upon wiping blood from
her eye, notices that she and two remaining soldiers are now surrounded by
the barbaric archers.
They are quickly overpowered and bound, the two men facing their General.

These barbaric lot were known for their sadism, making mothers to choose between
children, and men to choose between parents.
To them, it would be fun to make this General kill her own two men,
but this conflict goes deeper than even they could perceive.
For the the man to her right was her husband, a sacrificing man who had
given up his career to further his wife's and was now but a lowly foot soldier under her command.
But the man to her left was her lover, and second-in-command.
The product of loneliness and separation from her husband for extended quests through time.

"Choose!" the barbarian captain grunted in a foreign tongue, but she understood the meaning
all too well.
Her eyes began to flood, a sight no soldier had ever dreamed of from their stoic commander.
She began to lift her finger towards the man with whom she had made oath, for he still loved
her, had given his destiny for her, and she loved him for it.
But what if the superiors demanded to know why the lower-ranking officer was chosen?
They mustn't learn of their marriage which was forbidden among soldiers.
And what of her lover? It seemed as though she knew him now better than she
had ever known her husband, and she loved him too. He had been her spoils of war
for the last seven years, her husband still unknowing.

Her hands jerks painfully toward her second-in-command.
Two tears run the course of her expression.
But it paled in comparison to the look of confusion on the face of her husband.
So shocked was he that he had not the time for his countenance to betray a
look of betrayal.
The captain drew his sword, and in one swift and final blow slash downward across her husband's
abdomen. Another grunt and the barbarians carried his body to the hillside, where they
rolled it down the ridge into the valley below...



8 years later.

The former General stands in the stadium, bloodthirsty fans screaming at the top of
their lungs. She casts a glance of disgust but it is short-lived. For years, she has cared
about nothing.

Upon traveling back to their land, the barbarians had sold her and her lover
back to some guards from the same country for which they once served.
After suffering such a great loss at war, the state had decided to focus on internal affairs
and had become a strong trading nation, with a specialty in humans - mainly gladiators.

Realizing that her career in the army was in the past, the only place she knew she would
excel was in those blood-sand arenas where her first love, combat, could be displayed.
Upon joining the league (non-citizens and criminals where sometimes "randomly" selected)
she quickly rose to the rank of Champion. Her skills were already unmatched in the nation
and her military experience sealed the notion.

Today she was to fight a recent challenger. Rumor had it that he had risen from the bottom
and come through the gates of hell specifically for the title. Some said he was a phantom,
others, a foreign weapons-master. No matter, this was to be only another fight to fuel
the only drug that still kept her alive, a mixture of blood and adrenaline.

She looks into the stands to nod respectfully towards the emperor. To his right sat her former
second-in-command who had taken up politics upon the change of national focus.
They no longer spoke, and sometimes she wished it was his body that had been lurched down
a ravine. She wished it more fervently as she saw his new concubine standing behind him.
"Whore," she mutters uncaringly as she slips on her helmet, not sure exactly as to which one of them she was referring.

The announcer begins to introduce her to the crowd, but fades out. This is a sound she has
heard hundreds of times before. Her eyes focus on one image alone. She hears the announcer introduce her foe simply as "The Apparition". No one has ever heard his name.
She sits back on her foot as the gates rise. Her enemy stands menacing in a dark leather armor
with a metal breastplate and helmet.

The Apparition nears walking steadily, sword drawn. Every step with purpose, and defiance. As soon as he is within range he attacks. Broad slashes from his longsword are the most powerful she has ever faced.
Each strike knocks her back several steps. Expert use of his shield keeps her swifter attacks at bay.He begins using his shield as a weapon, nullifying her attempt at offense. A swift thrust of the shield
keeps knocking her backwards, as she ducks the following slice of the giant sword.

They've been fighting for nearly an hour now. Her armor is cracked from the glancing blows
she narrowly avoided. She had forgotten what this felt like. She almost loved it. The acidic taste of adrenaline in her mouth mixed with the blood trickling down her nose from her cracked helmet. It has been years since she truly lived.

THWACK. She uses her grieves to match the forces of his shield.
CLANG! An overhead swing catches her off-guard nearly splitting her in half. She barely throws her
weapon up to block in time.
THUD!!! His foot impacts with her chest. She sails hard into the ground, her helmet flying off.
He raises his sword for the final blow.
A hesitation.
A desperation move on her part. She lunges forward, thrusting her sword clean through his heart.

She stands, something is amiss. He could have easily deflected her charged. She was handed her victory.
Suddenly he grabs onto her hand which still clutches the sword in his chest.
He pulls her in, driving the sword into himself up to the hilt.
The breastplate cracks in two and falls. A familiar diagonal scar displays itself across his chest.
With his free hand he removes his helmet.

The color in her face drains. But it pales in comparison to the look of hatred combined with sorrow with a trace of love, that drapes his expression. Her husband stares her cold in the eyes and grabs the scruff of her collar.

"You forgot to finish the job. You forgot to finish the job..."

The words trail off into a breath as his eyes turn white and he sinks to his knees.

She stands there as the crowd goes wild.

She stands there as they sing her praise.

She stands there as they carry his body off the sand.

She stands there until the night.

She draws her short-sword, slides it underneath her jaw, and yanks back.

She stands there as her life leaks out, for surely, she lived for nothing...