Conquer My Ruins

An unworthy freeverse to
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kJERl9MBG-g



A phenomenon of life
straight from St. john’s hospital
the doctor said that if lived
 it would be a miracle
and tho the cold world
had wrote me off already
the thing that saved my life
was my father prayin steady
eighteen years later
they say my baby girl is the like
in selfish fear and sorrow
I left her to lose her fight
So when the mountains crumble
And the earth turns to space
It’ll take more than I can manage
Just to look her in the face

Like a baby sea turtle
I try my best to grasp my earth
Right out the egg we gettin killed
Im still tryna grasp the earth
And even if I make it
Im in an ocean of hurt
Im sposed to filter thru the trash
And try not to get murked
So when im havin a bad day
And I come off a lil strong
Just know without dat same strength
I wouldn’t’ve made it this long
I aint got it all together
I just spit wat I kno
And should my beliefs shatter again
Im prepared to let em go

There once was a nigga I knew
His name Yahweh
And I ignored silently
as they took him away
And as they beat him, cut him
and speared him to death
I turned a blind eye
and didn’t try to protest
my father had always said
before he too was dead
that every conscious sin I committed
was a thorn in Yahweh’s head
like Paul said, the things I hate
I find myself doin
All these sins I don’t wanna commit
Is what now leads to my ruin

Barely lived through today
Im supposed to do it tomorrow
I raise my sword against the grief
Against the tears, pain, and sorrow
I’ll do it again
Next year and forever
I vow to conquer these unknowns
And never say never
So whip out the stone
And write the shit down
I always went hard
And I would not bow
I fought the good fight
What I willed, it transpired
Im the last one standin
Cause no one could carry this fire
But if instead I should fall
and u get splashed with my blood
Just use it as evidence
that you da only nigga dat should